Tuesday, December 8, 2009

I feel like Scrooge

Even though I'm being more generous in my gift giving this year, I am feeling more like Scrooge. When Christmas rolls around, I am not ready for it. I am still longing for the warm weather.

The season isolates people who don't have family, and who are lonely. It forces people to scramble to buy gifts, and puts a huge emphasis on the material.

It just bugs me for this reason.

So, I feel like Scrooge.

This is what Dickens says about Scrooge:

"Oh! But he was a tight-fisted hand at the grind-
stone, Scrooge! a squeezing, wrenching, grasping,
scraping, clutching, covetous, old sinner! Hard and
sharp as flint, from which no steel had ever struck out
generous fire; secret, and self-contained, and solitary
as an oyster. The cold within him froze his old features,
nipped his pointed nose, shrivelled his cheek,
stiffened his gait; made his eyes red, his thin lips blue;
and spoke out shrewdly in his grating voice." - A Christmas Carol, Stave 1: Marley's Ghost

OK, so I guess I'm not that bad!


Helen said...

I miss not having children most at this time of year, whether it is seeing baby Jesus in the manger, children opening presents or all dressed up for Church, or even just doing the things I enjoyed doing as a child and knowing that I pass them down to no one.

I try to keep in mind though that even the most secular of radio stations play Christmas music, and one with deep meaning sometimes slips through. I then pray that those who need to hear the message listen to the carol with an open heart.

I guess my point is that people are more open to God at this time of year, even with all the materialism and commercialism cluttering the path.

Gabrielle Eden said...

I hadn't noticed that people are more open to God at this time of year, but that's a good observation, and I'm glad you feel that in your world, Helen.

I'm so sorry you feel so bad about not having children. I've survived not having children and it's not bothering me anymore. I have nieces and nephews, and my sister is going through hell, yes, I'd say pre hell over her situation with her kids and her husband - for the life she chose. I am pretty sure she wouldn't mind right now if she had chosen the path of being a full-time nurse and a single woman, instead of what she chose.

She is heart-broken, one son having married a non-believer, she is distraught, with one son being mentally ill, she is anxious, with one daughter unmarried and her age climbing. She is separated from her husband. Life is tough. She struggles financially.

I don't know. I think that it's not what it's cracked up to be.

You have a beautiful baby and one day he breaks your heart.