Time to Reflect 8/15/11

It is time to look back and see what God has done in my life.

There are two main victories that have been won:

1. A victory over mental illness
2. A victory over sexual sin

The first victory: not too long ago, I was struggling with mental torment – being visited with mental episodes and running to health professionals on a regular basis. It got so bad, before it got better. One thing is that it was getting worse during a time when I was hungry and thirsty for God and was seeking Him and His healing. Then a counter attack came as I sought to find God’s healing.

But eventually, soundness of mind set in, and peace came. Today, I am on very little medication, and experiencing peace of mind, and in circumstances that would otherwise not produce peace. In the past, one thing that caused mental torment worse than anything else was staying at my parents’ house. Even staying over night for one night would cause such torment that it would almost inevitably cause me to go into a tailspin – possibly cause a manic episode. I dreaded time with my family – I always felt oppressed and tormented mentally and emotionally after time with my family. Thanksgiving and Christmas were almost unbearable.

I hated living in the Twin Cities because I knew that there was a lot of spiritual oppression there – and it seemed there were few offerings spiritually – places to go for spiritual refreshment.

Well, today I have been living for the last five years not only in my parents’ home, but in my parents’ home in the TWIN CITIES! I have made contact with people who are lovers of God, and found spiritual renewal.

I have spent how many hours living in my parents’ home and how much time with my family – in fact, I spend most of my time with my family. Something has changed!!!!

Something has changed inside of me, attitude-wise, but there is also healing.

One milestone is that I was a prayer minister this summer at the Lutheran Conference on the Holy Spirit at North Heights Lutheran Church. It was there, years ago, that I went, broken and demonic, seeking help from my seemingly hopeless problems. Now I went, in total peace, and was even called upon to minister alone – ministering to people that also had demonic strongholds in their lives. I just trusted Jesus to use me to minister to them.

All the glory goes to Jesus for such an amazing victory!!!!

The second victory – I had a seemingly hopeless besetting sin in my life, that stemmed out of a broken relationship with my dad – sexual sin. Jesus led me to use communion, just alone in my home, receiving His grace for my sin, and His power over my sin, and the power of that sin was broken. Now, seven years later, I can hardly believe that I would ever even think of doing the things I once did!!!!! I am repelled by sexual sin! I love sexual purity. I love living this way! It is true freedom! It propels a person into living in the avenue of true love – no longer living for self.

Jesus has done all of this – He deserves all of the glory! He gets the glory – I get the benefits! Joyce Meyer said that! It’s so true!