This is what I am reading right now. I love her story. I love her spirit and her passion for God, and her hope for women of any age - with no children and no husband. She lived life to the fullest!!! She was in love with Jesus!
In reading her, I realized something: I don't like people. I just don't like people very well. I am going to have a hard time being a good minister of God, because basically, I just want to go away and be alone. People are a constant source of disappointment, and discouragement. In the West, I find people are constantly dragging me away from a fervent passion for Christ. Unbelief is rampant. People who represent God at the pulpit fall short of bringing the kingdom of God to the earth. Few people desire God's presence enough to try to bring His presence to the earth.
I am just weary of people. In reading Corrie Ten Boom, I realize that in order to be a missionary, I have to love people!!!!!!!!!!!!
All I want is to find God's presence, and soak in it, and soak up from Him what I need. Without Him, I cannot do anything.