no One is an island

So we thus need to move collectively ahead. People have collectively moved towards enlightenment. And so it continues. Europe was in darkness until collectively they began to challenge a political church and set out to have personal faith. Germany was ahead in that. 

So to work out what's wrong for me, I have to take others with me. Others have to find the same. My own dreams coming true have to mean other people fulfill their dreams too. I can't go to summits alone. Look at history. Martin Luther didn't discover he was accepted by God, not shamed, in isolation. His victory changed the entire west. It revolutionized faith.