Not my will, but thine...

I need to laugh. I said to God, "Here Am I Send Me" and "Not my will but thine be done..."

Wow! You never know what that will mean if you really mean it, or how God might take you up on what you declared!

So then maybe things don't go as you had wanted, but you realize, you aren't bored like you were, and maybe there are things you never knew you were capable of ..maybe only God can show you what you are capable of. In finding out that you have strengths and gifts you never knew you had you also now realize..there is a type of person in this world you never would have believed you are suited for, bc you never knew how they would appreciate what you are, bc you never knew that's what you are. 

And so you realize that you never could find your soul mate back before God started to challenge you to "be all you can be" joining His army. 

But without the adversity of reality, you never really spread those wings. 

And God's work in your life is tested for how concrete that is. 

We see in the book of Job the strange reality that this is something God proves to Satan. Why that is I'm still not exactly sure. 

He says in Isaiah 55 "My Ways are not your ways, and my thoughts are not your thoughts. As the heavens are higher than the earth so My Ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts."

Amen!