Thursday, February 26, 2009

Please Pray For Don

I formerly called him Dominick when I was using different names, but really, first names are OK to keep people anonymous.

His name is Don and I've known him for twenty years. We have been Just Friends and it's been pretty amazing. I met him when I was backslidden, and he's seen me go through all the changes of coming back to Christ. But now I am weary of his endless holding back on God, and frankly, I hardly enjoy his company any more, yet he keeps coming to me for company. He wants to spend time in the coffee shop and all I want to do while I'm there is be on the internet, connecting with real Christians, like I know most of you are!

I want him to surrender his life to God. When????????????

He's living with a woman outside of marriage and never seems to "get" that he's in sin.

Pray!!!!! Pray that I will have the right words.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Prayer Request

And I think Sherri will agree.

I need to get off my behind.

I spend hours on the internet. Then I go to work and am on a computer for hours. I want a more active lifestyle. Can anyone else relate to this need for physical activity?

Please pray for me. I want a job that involves physical activity. I once did cleaning for a living, but then it involved being alone - no people contact, and no mental stimulation. Can we win?

Splish Splash I Was Takin' A Bath - Bobby Darin

I was just getting ready in the morning in the bathroom, and this song from my childhood came into my head. I said that I don't like old songs, but this is one that I adore.

25 Random Things About Me

1. I get tired of music very quickly and need new music all the time.
2. I don't reminisce because of old music, in fact, can't stand old songs.
3. I don't like memories of the past like other people my age. I love to move forward.
4. I love animals.
5. I love cats.
6. I used to prefer the company of men, but I've started to enjoy the company of women now much better than I used to.
7. I've recently bridged the gap with my family and spend most of my time with family members.
8. One of my best friends is my cousin who is a retired doctor.
9. I love foreign cultures, and would find it hard to choose one over the other. I guess I prefer South America.
10. If you know me at all you know that I am politically conservative. All I can say about Obama is Oh-bama!
11. I am wild about God's healing power. Don't even talk to me if you don't believe that it's God's will to heal. I don't want to hear about it. I am convinced that it's God's will to heal and I want to see the wildest healing miracles. I recently heard about someone in a healing meeting whose scar just disappeared, just like that! I want that same miracle to happen to me.
12. In general, I want to experience God's miraculous power more in my life. That is my goal I get frustrated with people who won't allow that in their lives.
13. One of the miracles I want to experience is the transfer of wealth. I want to prosper.
14. One of the miracles I need is to have a joint grow back into my foot - a recreative miracle.
15. Another miracle I need is total restoration of the chemicals of my mind.
16. I want to be used by God to heal other people.
17. I want to still be used by God to help young people.
18. I want to be used by God to help the persecuted church.
19. I want to help The Well in Thailand - a ministry to prostitutes and bar girls.
20. I want to be fully cleansed in my heart of any bitterness or un-forgiveness
21. I like to ski in the winter
22. I like to bike and swim in the summer
23. I want to have money to go to places like the Cayman Islands with my cousin and go snorkeling
24. I want to go to California and visit my nieces.
25. I want to go to Germany and visit my sister and my nieces.

You Lifted Me Out - Chris Tomlin

Wow - Tomlin really has something!


This is a collaborative effort, including my mother, and my women's bible study leader Kris.

Christians can have murder in their souls without realizing it. It has always amazed me how much sin a person can still have in his life after becoming a Christian.

We can have serious sin even if we don’t act on it. We are to ‘work out our salvation with fear and trembling.’ We work out Christ’s salvation into our souls, replacing sin with righteousness, and it doesn’t happen overnight.

With regards to murder, there is a movie, I don't remember the name, where a guy murders his girlfriend because she has an abortion. He's supposed to be some kind of Christian. I thought that movie was not far off base. That could happen to a person who professed to believe in Christ if he or she did not come to terms with the passions stirring in the blood.

In Exodus 20, God says, you shall not murder, but Jesus came along and said that anyone who hates his brother is a murderer. He said if anyone is even angry with his brother it is the equivalent of murder. I believe he is talking about a certain kind of anger. He is talking about anger that stems from an ungodly hatred. There is a godly form of anger.

Matthew 5: 21-23

21"You have heard that it was said to the people long ago, 'Do not murder,[a] and anyone who murders will be subject to judgment.' 22But I tell you that anyone who is angry with his brother[b]will be subject to judgment. Again, anyone who says to his brother, 'Raca,[c]' is answerable to the Sanhedrin. But anyone who says, 'You fool!' will be in danger of the fire of hell.

Holding back forgiveness is also a form of murder.

How to know if you have murder in your soul:

1. You like to watch violence
2. You have an excessive enjoyment of murder mysteries and stories
3. You have thoughts pop into your head, like slicing someone, or slamming them with a log
4. You can’t control your anger
5. People irritate you constantly
6. You can’t forgive someone for something they did to you, and your thoughts of hatred and anger won’t go away
7. You like to hurt or even kill animals, just for the sake of killing
8. You hurt people with your words
9. You are physically abusive
10. You get impatient excessively and constantly
11. You lack drive or incentive
12. You want to die
13. You talk about people behind their backs

How to end the problem of murder

First, how not to end it

1. Don’t lash yourself like Martin Luther did before he discovered grace, to pay for your sins – ha!
2. Don’t tell yourself over and over, “I will not hate, I will not be angry!”
3. Don’t read self help books.
4. Don’t go to a psychologist, or do this alone for help.
5. Don’t commit actual murder – just kidding.
6. Don’t do everything short of murder and then tell yourself it’s OK because you haven’t murdered anyone.

What to do

1. Go to Christian counselors or a pastor and confess your sin.
. Let them know you have a problem and confess before God and pray to end the sin.
2. Take communion either corporately or privately and use it to receive God’s grace and power to overcome your sin.
3. Find scriptures that deal with this problem and have them ready to confess out loud during the day.
4. Find books by Christians on this topic

“For freedom Christ has set us free. Do not become enslaved again by the yoke of bondage.” Gal 5:1

Communion Prayer

Instructions: When you examine yourself for sin, don’t be too introspective. If God doesn’t show you anything, just put the word “anything” in the blank. If he does show you something, don’t try to fix the problem yourself. Confess it and expect God to release you from the power of this sin, and move on. Take communion believing that His grace still belongs to you while you are struggling, and that it has the power to bring you out of sin.

Prayer: Father in heaven, I examine myself today to see if there is anything in me that is displeasing to You. In Jesus name I ask You to forgive me for _______, and to release me from the power of this sin. I break the hold of my judgment against anyone who has hurt me and allow him or her to go free of me. I ask you to forgive me for any part I had in causing this and to cleanse me.

And now we will repeat the words of Jesus as He broke bread with His disciples:

Take, eat, this is my body, like the body of the Lamb eaten by Israel, broken for you to bear your sins, so you may die to sin and live to righteousness. This body heals you of the results of sin, and heals the body. Do this in remembrance of me.

Drink, for this is my blood of the new covenant, not the old covenant of the blood of animals, but the new covenant of the blood of the eternal Lamb of God. This was shed for you to pardon sin, to release you from sin. This blood sets you free from the destruction that sin has caused, and heals the soul. Do this in remembrance of me.

Lord, we remember You and what You have done for us.

Remember, in 1 John 1:9 it says, If we confess our sins He is faithful and just and will forgive our sins and will cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

And in Phil. 1:6 it says, He who began a good work in you will bring it to completion.

Here is a good post on this topic by a Catholic.

Sing, Sing, Sing - Chris Tomlin

Oh to be in a huge auditorium with people worshiping and dancing to this song! Like this one pastor said, if we really knew God, there is nothing about Him that we would not like!

Monday, February 23, 2009

Nation's Blacks Creeped Out By All The People Smiling At Them

Hilarious article from the Onion. "Obama gives a speech on the economy and people act like my team just won the Super Bowl. I didn't even vote for the guy. I'm a Libertarian."

Pro-Life Pastor Jailed

Pastor Hoye was found guilty last month of “unlawfully approaching a person entering an abortion clinic in Oakland.” In fact, he had been peacefully carrying a sign reading, “Jesus Loves You! Let Us Help,” and offering women information on alternatives to abortion.

Video evidence offered to the court showed clearly that escorts from the abortion clinic had repeatedly harassed Pastor Hoye by trying to block his sign with blank signs of their own. (The videos can be seen at

The hearing was eventful, and at one point a black pastor who was there to support Pastor Hoye was physically removed from the courtroom.

Dozens of African-American pastors from around the nation who were there to support Rev. Hoye were outraged by the sentence. They called it “a travesty that Rev. Hoye was found guilty for standing in the gap for black children targeted by the abortion industry.” Now they are simply enraged.

“It is absolutely incredible that in America an individual can be sentenced to jail for engaging in peaceful free speech activity on a public sidewalk,” remarked Allison Aranda, Staff Counsel for Life Legal Defense Foundation. Aranda stated that “Rev. Hoye has a legal right to refuse onerous conditions of probation. Rev. Hoye will not and should not agree to give up his free speech rights. We will appeal.”

Meanwhile, the court is allowing Hoye to serve his time through community service.

However, Judge Hing ordered Hoye to stay away from the clinic. Hoye objected to the stay-away order as a continued violation of his constitutional free speech rights. The judge imposed the order anyway. Hoye may be jailed immediately if he shows up at the clinic.

Rev. Hoye is an African-American pastor who feels called to work for the end of the genocide-by-abortion taking place in the African-American community. An estimated 19 million black babies have been aborted since 1970, according to Dennis Howard, President of the Movement for a Better America.

Howard said, “That is 7.7 times the African-American population of California, and nearly half (49.6%) of the 2006 African-American population of the entire United States. It is also 5,500 times more than all blacks lynched between 1886 and 1968. That is why Pastor Hoye and other black pastors feel an urgent need to speak out and to witness against abortion.”

Hoye said: “The silence in the Black American Church regarding the evil of abortion is killing us.”

That’s why he is willing to risk jail by standing in front of an abortion clinic in Oakland with leaflets offering abortion alternatives and a sign reading, “Jesus loves you and your baby. Let us help.”

Meanwhile, Dennis Howard has called on all pastors, clergy, bishops, and lay people of all faiths “to join in a nationwide campaign of prayer and fasting to end this persecution of a man of conscience.”

Howard has done extensive research on the economic impact of abortion and its devastating impact on faith communities in the United States. As an example, he estimates “that there an estimated 24 million Catholics missing because of abortion and the aggressive use of contraception. Plus an estimated 45 million Catholics who no longer attend church regularly. That adds up to a huge loss of faith as well as a huge financial loss. Pastor Hoye is right when he says ‘the evil of abortion is killing us.’”

Howard was also alone in forecasting the current economic collapse as early as 1997 in a special report that he is currently expanding into a book. For information, go to:

According to the 2008 U.S. Statistical Abstract, the most recent statistics show 654 abortions for every 1000 live births for Black and other races (a rate of 39.5%), compared to 221 abortions for every 1000 live births for whites (a rate of 18.1%).

According to Howard, “This reflects the targeting of blacks by organizations like Planned Parenthood, the concentration of abortion facilities in poor urban areas, and the active support of abortion by liberal black politicians like Al Sharpton, Jesse Jackson, and Barack Obama.”

LLDF Legal Director Catherine Short and attorney Mike Millen, who represented Rev. Hoye, are currently challenging the constitutionality of the ordinance on Rev. Hoye’s behalf in federal court. They are hopeful the ordinance will be struck down and Hoye vindicated.

To join the movement to support Pastor Hoye, email your name and address to and write “Free Pastor Hoye” in the subject line.

To learn more about Hoye’s ministry, go to:

“Letters from a California Courtroom” by Rev. Walter Hoye may be downloaded from:

To contact elected officials, go to:

Join Facebook Group: "Friends Of Pro-Life Pastor Walter Hoye"

Saturday, February 21, 2009

1/2 Boy 1/2 Man

I got this in an email from Sherri. I hope she doesn't mind that I put it on my blog.

The average age of the military man is 19 years.
He is a short haired, tight-muscled kid who,
under normal circumstances is considered by
society as half man, half boy. Not yet dry behind
the ears, not old enough to buy a beer, but old
enough to die for his country. He never really
cared much for work and he would rather wax
his own car than wash his father's, but he has
never collected unemployment either.


He's a recent High School graduate; he was probably an average student, pursued some form of sport
activities, drives a ten year old jalopy, and has a
steady girlfriend that either broke up with him when
he left, or swears to be waiting when he returns from half a world away. He listens to rock and roll or hip-hop or rap or jazz or swing and a 155mm howitzer.

He is 10 or 15 pounds lighter now than when he
was at home because he is working or fighting
from before dawn to well after dusk. He has
trouble spelling, thus letter writing is a pain for him,
but he can field strip a rifle in 30 seconds and
reassemble it in less time in the dark. He can recite
to you the nomenclature of a machine gun or grenade launcher and use either one effectively if he must.

He digs foxholes and latrines and can apply first aid like a professional.

He can march until he is told to stop,
or stop until he is told to march.

He obeys orders instantly and without hesitation,
but he is not without spirit or individual dignity.
He is self-sufficient.

He has two sets of fatigues: he washes one and wears the other. He keeps his canteens full and his feet dry.

He sometimes forgets to brush his teeth, but never
to clean his rifle. He can cook his own meals, mend
his own clothes, and fix his own hurts.

If you're thirsty, he'll share his water with you; if you
are hungry, his food. He'll even split his ammunition
with you in the midst of battle when you run low.

He has learned to use his hands like weapons
and weapons like they were his hands.

He can save your life - or take it, because that is his job.

He will often do twice the work of a civilian, draw half the pay, and still find ironic humor in it all.

He has seen more suffering and death than he should have in his short lifetime.


He has wept in public and in private, for friends
who have fallen in combat and is unashamed.

He feels every note of the National Anthem
vibrate through his body while at rigid attention, while tempering the burning desire to 'square-away ' those around him who haven't bothered to stand,
remove their hat, or even stop talking.

In an odd twist, day in and day out, far from
home, he defends their right to be disrespectful.

Just as did his Father, Grandfather, and Great-grandfather, he is paying the price for our freedom. Beardless or not, he is not a boy.
He is the American Fighting Man that has
kept this country free for over 200 years.

He has asked nothing in return, except
our friendship and understanding.
Remember him, always, for he has earned our respect and admiration with his blood.

And now we even have women over there in
danger, doing their part in this tradition of going to War when our nation calls us to do so.

As you go to bed tonight, remember this shot. . .

A short lull, a little shade and a picture of
loved ones in their helmets.

Prayer wheel for our military... please don't
break it Please send this on after a short prayer.

Prayer Wheel

'Lord, hold our troops in your loving hands.
Protect them as they protect us.
Bless them and their families for the selfless acts they perform for us in our time of need. Amen.'

When you receive this, please stop for a moment and say a prayer for our ground troops in Afghanistan , sailors on ships, and airmen in the air, and for those in Iraq , Afghanistan and all foreign countries.

There is nothing attached...
This can be very powerful...

Of all the gifts you could give a US Soldier,
Sailor, Coastguardsman, Marine,
or Airman, prayer is the very best one.

I can't break this one, sorry.
Pass it on to everyone and pray.


Burt Rosenberg Makes Me Laugh Again!

Dearly Beloved You-ness,

Sorry I've been a tad incommunicado lately. I've moved. Yep, to a nice, new abode. And, in case you hadn't heard, the process of moving can be a daunting, yea, quasi-terrifying, overly-whelming experience.

You know, not unlike the like the deadly face-off between the snake and the mongoose, it points up man's death battle with stuff. I had considered myself rather unattached to the things of this world. But as I was sorting and packing, I continually found myself with some stupid piece of thing in hand, staring at it...timelessly staring...staring...trying to decide whether this item I hadn't noticed in years needs to find newness of life in the new place, or be tossed.

I tried to adhere to the 8-second Rule. That is, if you find yourself, staring at the same stupid thing in your hand, for 8 seconds or more, un-nostalgically toss its bad self in the doggone trash, just like Ming the Merciless. (That's a Buck Rogers reference, for you whippersnappers.)

Sounds like a good rule, and it is, I suppose. But, I found myself staring at a thing for 8 seconds, then 18 seconds, then two minutes, thinking of the thing's genesis and life story, and life purpose, then put it back where I picked it up from. Know the feeling?

I could hear the inner voice of my beloved departed Grandma, who escaped the Old Country (Austria) with bupkiss (i.e. nothing), saying, "What? You can't throw that away. You'll need that. It's a sin to waste. Whatsa matter with you?"

Wheww!, I won't bore you with the physical exhaustion of the moving itself. Thank God for faithful friends who helped, above and beyond. You know who you are!

In any case, I'm moved in. Now living in Reston, Virginia. Albeit, still sorting through boxes of the stuff that made the cut.

For two months or so, have had no Television or Internet access at all. By choice, neither will be installed until March 1st. A very quiet, meditative and contemplative experience. Have had a reprieve, a respite, a sabbatical from jangling media. A cleansing of the interior palate. (Except for a small radio, so I could monitor, at least a bit, world events, so I could better make fun of them.)

But, most importantly, to take a breath and consider a new era. Life has new eras, you know.

There is one waiting for you, if you would like one.

Mornings, though, I would slip out to a "free Wi-Fi" coffee place and deal with necessary emails, while sipping a nice hot tea, purchased so the proprietors wouldn't think I was a shnorrer. That's Yiddish for a guy who takes without paying back. You know, a guy who uses the free Wi-Fi and don't buy nothin'. Don't wanna be that, heaven knows. Wanna be the opposite of that.

In any case, I'm refreshed, up & atom...full of Love and ready for the next adventure.
And, telling you so on a friend's computer.

In any case, this coming weekend, your humble sojourner will sojourn to Kansas City for a series of new divine appointments, Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Including a Joy Seminar, sponsored by Spring Hill Music Academy. You are cordially invited, distance notwithstanding. Come if you can. I'd love to see you.

For further info on the Kansas City events, contact the blessed soul who has set up these events in the Kansas City area, one Dan Wedekind. You can email him at for dates, details and data.

Will be in touch soon. Meanwhilst, take a deep, thankful breath, and know that there is always serene jubilance available to you in the inner sanctum of the secret place.

Your Friend,
in the Divine Smuggling Conspiracy,

For more information about this divinely inspirational Messianic Jewish wonder, who definitely makes you laugh and think and maybe even cry at the same time, go to (It was over there in my blogroll all along!)

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

How Jesus Saved Me!

There have been two giants in my life, seemingly sent to destroy me: a father who didn’t seem to love me, and mental illness.

My father was a retired pastor, so he lived a double life. He was a ‘man of the cloth’ to the public, but to his family and me, he was an angry man. He lashed out at and hurt me, verbally and physically at key points in my childhood.

Though as a child I had become a Christian, as a teen I ended up hating God and my parents. I was an atheist in High School, enjoying my distance from my parents’ Christianity.

When I turned 18, I suddenly had a terrible manic episode. It was like having a bad LSD trip, only I hadn’t taken drugs. Losing touch with reality, I became terrified. It turned into a visit to Hell. As a result, I reached out to Jesus to save me. When the clouds cleared later, and the manic symptoms subsided, I realized that I had been on my way to Hell, but Jesus had rescued me.

Getting into a bible study with my peers followed this, and I began to seek God for the first time in my life. I also forgave my father. At least, it was the first layer of forgiveness for him.

Even though I was seeking God, a year after I had the first episode, and each year for four years after that, I had subsequent manic episodes. Each time, my mother had the wisdom to take me to faith healers, to men of God.

A couple of times she took me to a hospital, but when I came out and was on drugs and was no better, it became clear that there was no solution in drugs or doctors, so she still had to take me to a faith healer. Through their prayer ministry I was delivered instantly from manic-depressive symptoms. My manic episode would come to an immediate halt in the name of Jesus!

Finally, in the fourth year, the last faith healer I went to ministered powerfully to me during an episode, and I walked away free.

I didn’t have another episode, at least for eleven years.

I had been in a bible study and involved with Christians for those first few four years during which I had the manic episodes, but it didn’t go very deep. The Word of God didn’t sink deep, and I was still troubled by feeling unloved by a father who had represented God. I still longed for love, and I didn’t trust God to give it to me. I went looking for love ‘in all the wrong places.’ I didn’t shut God out completely, or stop believing in Him, I just couldn’t serve Him with a full heart of love.

I also didn’t understand why mental illness had come into my life. It caused a crisis of faith. Even though God had caused me to be delivered from the episodes, I still didn’t understand the torment I had gone through earlier.

So, during those eleven years, I strayed away from God. That led me to seek psychiatric help instead of God when I decided to look for improved mental function. I still had some residual symptoms – depression, and instability, and was seeking to be more whole. But I didn’t seek my wholeness through the Word of God or through prayer, the things that had delivered me earlier on. In my foolishness, I went to the secular world and to doctors. They put me on powerful psychotropic medication that bonded to my brain in an addictive way.

Soon there were side effects that were making me miserable, but if I tried to get off the medication, it caused an episode – again, after all those years of being free!

This led me back to God. Thank God for what drives us back to Him!!! Add to that a relationship with a man that ended in heartbreak – the one relationship that was the straw that broke the camel’s back.

You probably want to hear that all my problems ended after that! No! My problems only began at that point! The problems with manic-depression only intensified.

But underneath these surface problems, there flowed a stream of new life. I found the love I was always looking for. God led me to a church that was truly alive. And in finding Christians who were alive for the first time, I discovered the difference between dead religious life and living the true life that Jesus had talked about.

That church taught me some new things – soaking in God’s presence, and the essence of forgiveness.

There was this incredible spiritual battle surrounding the restoration process that took place as I soaked up God’s love and let it change me on the inside. I was under so much attack that I had such a bad manic episode it caused me to drive my car into a tree. This caused damage to my foot to the extent that I lost part of my foot.

That may seem strange – that on the road to recovery one would find destruction.

But now I have a healing miracle to look forward to. And here are all the results of the restoration that has taken place in the years of seeking God, being in His presence, speaking His Word, hearing and learning His Word, and being in the company of healthy Christians:

When I got delivered years ago, and walked away free, part of the freedom came in realizing that living at my parents’ house was part of my problem. As long as I didn’t live there I was free from manic episodes and symptoms. Even staying there for a short time later on became difficult. Just about ten years ago, even staying overnight became impossible.

But now, a healing has taken place, and spiritual power has overcome whatever demonic forces were causing the problems at my parents’ house. I have now been living at my parents' house since 2006.  My dad had a bad stroke and my mom and I took care of him until he passed away in the summer of 2012.

This would be impossible for me, except for Jesus.

And, there has been reconciliation with all my family members. I dreaded time with my family in the past. Thanksgiving and Christmas would make me sick emotionally and mentally, but not anymore.

I have forgiven them and spend lots of time with them doing fun social activities.

I used to have plenty of trouble with my work situation. I have been at the same company now since 2007, and have a position of responsibility that allows me to use some important skills, and I have respect. My company has also been generous in allowing me to share my faith.

I’ve gone back to my parents’ church and made friends with the old crowd – a church that I had problems with because I blamed it for my loss of faith.

Another amazing area of restoration is in my sexuality. Through the broken relationship with my father, and because of ancestral bondage, I ended up having a royal struggle with sexual sin. I finally broke with sexual sin in 2004 and have walked wonderfully free since then. I tell about this victory in another writing. The victory came through the revelation of taking communion.

God is so real to me and I continue a love relationship with Him where He is the most important thing in my life. Since all the episodes that I went through, I can see that the enemy was trying to stop the growth and healing that was taking place but didn’t succeed.

I’ve also been healed of back trouble, gum disease, metabolism problems, hypothyroidism, high blood sugar, high blood pressure, acid reflux, constipation, knee pain, a lingering cough, an internal ear fluid retention problem, and a rare anal itching disease that a proctologist said would never go away, skin cancer, failing eyesight, and at last, manic-depression, or problems with medication, whatever the problem was. I believe God will someday restore the joint that is missing from my foot. I believe that physical healing is something we will see more of in the future.

The doctors, who I once feared, have participated in a miracle!  They gave me the green light to go off medication!  Isn't that amazing? God has restored me.

Praise Jesus!

Updated Nov 2014

Monday, February 16, 2009

Jesus and the Atheist

Thankful Paul just came on my blog today and said "hi." I went to his blog and found the most amazing testimony of how he was rescued from killing himself! It always shows me that God is more than able to reach people and show people the truth without any one even preaching at them. It just shows God is amazing!

Friday, February 13, 2009

Look At This!

Taken from my cell phone, it's my first ever internet connection that came to life in the flesh (other than the Minnesota organization of bloggers!) It's Bill Graver! He's over there in my blog roll and you've seen him comment from time to time.

Bill came on my blog by means of a post I did on the ministry in Thailand called "The Well." Bill has a passion for this ministry, which is to bar girls and prostitutes - taking them off the streets of Bangkok, basically an effort against human trafficking. Bill has been over there and worked with them, is on the board of directors of the ministry, and would love to be there, but has a son by a broken marriage, and his ex-wife has custody, so in order to be near his son he needs to be here in the States.

He is vivacious and funny in person - a lot more of his humor comes across than in his blog, where he gets more serious. He touches my heart with his desire to be in ministry, and just his desire to reach out, having contacted me. He is a sweetheart of a person, and reminds me that the true body of Christ is just so awesome!

Bill's job brought him to the Twin Cities for about a month - he is a Tech Consultant and they send him to different cities for a week at a time, in this case for a month. He is all over the place, and his lifestyle is exhilarating, though it could be exhausting for some.

This was a great opportunity for him and I to finally meet. Saturday we are going to try to see the movie "New In Town." I'm seeing it again because it's great!

Pray for Bill - that God would meet all his needs, and that his desire to work in Thailand would be fulfilled.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

12 Year Old Speaks Out On Issue Of Abortion

A mother says this about the video:

"My daughter prepared and delivered this speech for her grade 7 class. Even those who didn't agree with her loved it."

A Time When I Felt Loved

Sherri at Matter of Fact asked us to tell about a time when we felt loved and I thought I'd publish that story here.

It was during the time of the Persian Gulf War. I was having a manic episode. I decided that Minneapolis was too evil to stay in and drove off in a car west of the Twin Cities to Hutchinson, Minnesota. My car broke down there, in January. I went into a restaurant, ordered some food, and when I couldn't pay for it because I had no money, the police came. They determined that I was delusional and took me to the station where they called my folks. (God bless them for not taking me to a hospital - small towns are less likely to do that.)

My dad came out immediately. He asked me what I wanted to do. I wanted to be put up in a motel because Minneapolis was too evil to stay in, so my dad paid for a local motel and I stayed there overnight. In the meantime, he took care of my car, and had gone back to the Twin Cities to sleep, then returned the next morning to have breakfast with me.

Even though I was delusional I was so aware of how my dad loved me. It was one time when his love just shone.

After that I had to be convinced to go back to Minneapolis, and I was admitted to a hospital for a short period of time.

Can you think of a time when you felt truly loved by someone?

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Loving Animals

My cousin lets me come over and use his wireless internet occasionally. I was over at his house last night and he was watching the movie "Red" about a man living in a small town in America who had his dog shot by a young man out with his young male buddies, who did it for no good reason.

The young man was obviously sick and the movie seemed to focus too much on the death of the animal and not on the fact that the boy held the man up at gunpoint and was trying to rob him, which is a felony. The sheer cruelty of shooting the man's dog, just for pleasure meant that the boy is slated for a life of crime, possibly killing people also for pleasure. But the movie didn't seem to be making that point very well.

I was saying how cruelty to animals leads to cruelty to people. My cousin agreed, but he said kindness to animals, in the reverse, does not guarantee good character in people. Hitler cared about his dog.

I was thinking about how animals were given to us by God for our enjoyment and are easy to care for and easy to love. As my cousin said, animals are easy to love, but people are not, and people are more important.

This is coming from someone who has loved animals like they were people. I love animals with a passion. It's good to love animals, but it is imperative that we love people!

Handel's Messiah

I know this should come at Christmas, but I was just thinking about Handel and his amazing work. Read about him here.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Valentine's Day Joke

Boomers looking for love ad says they're looking for long-term relationship, but we don't have much time left! Ha! Soon we will only be able to look for a quick affair because we just don't have enough time left for a relationship! Just a joke.

Be sure to check out last year's post for February 14th on Valentinus, the saint who we remember Valentine's Day for. Amazing that we are remembering a saint who was martyred for his faith in Christ in our culture where our Christian roots are being lambasted.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Bill Gates

There was a special on TV recently telling about Gates' history with Microsoft - the litigations because he had a sort of monopoly on the market, and his recent retirement and commitment to philanthropic giving. He has slways seemed like such a nice guy, and I've always liked him, and he has seemed so amazing considering the huge amount of money he has($59 billion) and his attitude and his huge generosity ($30 billion give-away).

I wondered if he was Jewish because of his brilliance, because that brilliance is usually coming from a Jewish mind.

I went looking for his ethnic origins but you can hardly find anything about that. One source says something about his parents going to a Congregational church, and that Bill learned bible verses. Another source says, he is indeed Jewish only he is not practicing like his parents. You can't seem to trust the internet.

Mostly you find plenty that says Bill is agnostic or an atheist and is quoted as saying he finds religion a waste of time. One source claimed he was contributing to some Satanic organization, but I don't believe them.

All I know is we should pray for Bill, because Jesus said, "what does it profit a man if he should gain the whold world but lose his soul?" Here is an article asking if Bill Gates will go to heaven.

It has an excellent explanation of why we evangelize, as it talks about not knowing if a person is saved or not, such as Bill Gates. It says:

This also raises the question, Why do we evangelize? We evangelize for many reasons. We evangelize so that people may have a full and complete life while here on earth. We evangelize so that they may have confidence that they have eternal life through Christ. We evangelize because we want the best that God has provided for all people. We evangelize because we have experienced a foretaste of God's love and life and we want to share this. We have experienced the source of life that is found in Christ and that has been made available for all people to experience. We want to share the gospel, the good news, of God's creative, restoring power. We evangelize because as lives are being transformed, this transformation brings glory to God, who is the creator. Changed lives bring glory to Christ who is their redeemer. To see God at work requires faith. We evangelize because we seek to share that faith with others, and to encourage life changing faith in others.

Bill was quoted as saying there is no real evidence of a soul. He puts his trust in science.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Lost In Love With God

The last couple of days I've been in a conference headed by two awesome men: John Arnott of the Toronto Airport Christian Fellowship, and Che Ahn, of Harvest Rock Church in Pasadena, California. Che Ahn is from South Korea, and is amazing. I just don't know what to say except that he is amazing. He talked about the seven mountains of culture - Family, Religion, Education, Government, Business,Media, Arts (& Entertainment,) and that we as Christians are meant to be the head and not the tail and to dominate all seven of these mountains of culture, but we are not!

But what I wanted to share is what John Arnott talked about. John is a very anointed man, senior pastor of the church that has birthed so many movements worldwide, including the movement "The Call" that Che Ahn is head of. John is dripping with the anointing of the Holy Spirit.

He talked about Mary, who poured out the Alabaster of oil on Jesus' feet, and her extravagant love for him. He talked about the virgins who had oil and were not left behind. He said that this is talking about those who are in a love relationship with God.

We must have a love relationship with God where He is the object of our desire. We just need to get a hold of the fact that if you desire God above all else, and know that He loves you - nothing else matters. Nothing can go wrong in life. All your needs are taken care of. When you love God you love others, everything falls into place.

During the season of love, this message is so important.

Friday, February 6, 2009

Miracle On The Hudson

Rex Babin's best interpretation of "Miracle on the Hudson"

44 U.S. Presidents Morphed

From Washington to Obama - morphed to the tune of Ravel's Bolero.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

She Offered to Pray!!!

An English nurse was suspended for offering to pray for one of her patients. Story is here.

Monday, February 2, 2009

"Volition" - Powerful Pro-life Video!

This you gotta see! A rising star - a young Christian film maker, Tim Morgan, made this film - a pro-life effort. It's 16 minutes of profundity.

Read here about the miracle of the making of "Volition."

I'm Sorry Anonymous

I'm sorry I deleted your comment.

I got one of those comments that's basically a hate comment, so I deleted it, then realized it was my opportunity. So now I will try to answer Anonymous' three questions that seem to have stemmed from my post about Obama's recent decisions regarding DOMA and FOCA.

1. How many abortions have YOU had?

Please refer to my post "My own 'I didn't have an abortion story'" from Go Free Now. In it you'll discover that I didn't have an abortion, but wanted to. I struggled with wanting to, but the Holy Spirit, which God so graciously placed within me, wouldn't allow me to have one. It is by God's grace, and grace alone that I didn't have one.

2. Are you straight?

I am "straight" but by God's grace. I definitely have all the makings for being a twisted girl, a girl who lusts after her own sex, a homosexual. My wounded relationship with my father, my mother who dominates and has taken the place of my father in many ways - it probably makes for a homosexual. But by God's grace, I am not. I have had perverted thoughts, especially after times when I have given in to heterosexual lust - to sex outside of marriage with men. That opens the door also to perversion.

Read more about my experience and thoughts on homosexuality in my post "It's not gay, it's queer."

Paul said it best:

"For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves. It is a gift of God, not as a result of works, that no one should boast." Ephesians 2:8-9

I cannot boast. I have been saved by faith. I have been given God's righteousness by faith. It is a gift of God. Thank you Jesus for your gift of salvation and grace.

Question 3:

How can you let your cat be that unhealthy?

I am not sure what anonymous is referring to, but I read in a book that cats can be fat (not obese) and still be healthy. My cat is not as fat as he looks (long hair.) He can still run and jump and his plumpness makes him ever so cute. I don't believe in spending lots of money on expensive cat food such as Science Diet. If you have to spend money on that, you maybe shouldn't have a pet. I buy my cat all natural cat food. That's as much as I'm willing to spend. People are starving in places in the world. But anyway, my cat is very healthy, thank you for your concern.