I did a post called 5 things I love about my church.
Not too honest.
It's only one of my churches, and I don't love it. I mean, I love it, because I love The Church, and my heart is with them and to see them become what Christ wants them to be. But I don't like them very well, because they aren't very welcoming, and it wearies me because I have been going there a while.
About 7 years ago I was in crisis and sought that church out because a lady goes there who knows my parents from before they were married. She and her husband double dated with my parents. She is a widow now, and one of the oldest members of her church.
She is the most welcoming element of that church. She is very concerned about evangelism and shares her faith regularly.
I go to my parents' church, a dry Lutheran sect that is good on preaching the Word and has solid biblical based people in it. They have a bible school that they have started.
The only thing there is that they hold back on the Holy Spirit. Their worship is bottled up and they don't know about that threshold that you pass when you have been "baptized in the Holy Spirit," that you never return from.
So, I sought out this church that the older lady goes to. I just find them to be weird. If they are turned off by me, who they once knew to be in crisis, but now is not, how do they feel about real "cases" - people with real needs? They don't seem to be prepared to deal with such people.
Neither church seems prepared for that.
I went to another church before this run by two women. Since then I have decided that churches should not be headed by a woman. They reached out to me in crisis, but ultimately were really strange, because not only did they reach out, they put kind of a 'death hold' on me, and in order to get well emotionally and mentally, I felt that I needed to move on.
Ach! People strangle Jesus. They strangle Him and His spirit.
The very place people go to get help for all their needs, just as God would have it, they get trampled and further broken.
People, this ought not to be so!
This small charismatic church that the older lady belongs to is one that I can only handle because God has made me so much more well than I have ever been.
If I was in a bad state, if I was in crisis, I could never handle it.
What do you say blogging community?
Please pray for me - that I would find a place that welcomes me and the spiritual gifts God has given me.